new me in new year

[this was written half an hour to new year]

and i'm in my own room!
gosh!

wondering why i go nowhere?
cos somehow my friends who usually invite me to BBQ - were being invited by their friends to BBQ ;p
so i thought, setting up my blog's layout in new year's eve is not bad at all :)
*remembering i don't feel well for spending my whole night eating & talking, slept at 3.30am, woke up at 8am -_-
*barusan aja nge-rock (if you understand what i mean) it's related with 'masuk angin' XDD

i realized that my sleeping hours really affects to :
1. my mentality & mood
2. my skin's health

so this is it!
i was so in blue this morning, awoke with anxiety.
then i read out the verse in Phil 4.6-7.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

though i didnt really understand why they put 'with thanksgiving' there, i did it.
then i requested things to God, including the 'unholy' one : BB, a new car, a new job, meet my future husband before my birthday, etc hehehe..
but after all, i admitted what i need the most is His peace.
then i prayed wholeheartedly, that i would be a woman in Proverbs 31.30, and bloomed in my age ^^

understand it like this :
i wanna be a beautiful shiny diamond, hard to get, sold in very high price, and once it's been bought, the owner will keep it safe for it's worthy.

God, be with me always.

okeh! time for my first smile in new year!
SMILE   :D