the hardcore do understand

i took one day off today before Lebaran holiday started next monday.

just thought that i need a Me day - alone, after sad sad* moments last week.
*it's repeated because it's double sad, made me lost my appetite
**quite a lot help me on diet though. yes! wkwkwk..

so a ME day began with the Pepper Lunch for brunch
*yes, the appetite lost last week, but i found him back in 2 days, don't ask how :d

the things after might not be as interesting as food:
watch Kungfu Panda 2,
drink my fave Quickly milk tea,
buy new release comic - Conan,
get me a new outfit,
gas station,
go home.

butttttttttttttttttttttttttt,
what i really wanna write here is:
YOU SHOULD WATCH KUNGFU PANDA 2!!!
and really listen to the quotes

i keep some for my ownself.
touching and heartwarming.
just read it carefully :)

[let go]
Po: You've got to let go of that stuff from the past because it just doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you choose to be now.

[be healed]
Po: Scars heal.
Lord Shen: No, they don't. Wounds heal.
Po: Oh, right. What do scars do? Fade?
Lord Shen: I don't care what scars do!

[thrifty]
Mr. Ping: My son saved China - you too, can save! Buy one dumpling, get one free!
--> wkwkwkwk..

[tigress juga manusia, punya rasa punya hati]
Tigress: The hardcore do understand, but I can't watch my friend be killed.
*for all my tough friends: don't be so hard on ourselves, expressing sadness or love is just normal, we're born with heart anyway ;)
God bless us

the Art of Life

just pop up in my mind :

to see the prosperous life, and meet the poor who sometimes are not less happier than the rich
that is His art to teach gratefulness

to be the smart among the average people, then feel stupid among the smart ones
that is the art of shaping my humility

to give up upon a condition, but then receive the best one
that is the art of surrender

to be jealous sometimes, and get blushed at many happy moments
that is the art of loving someone

(i like this one!)
to feel the salt, and taste the sweet one after
that is the art of enjoying food :)

to see nothing and feel down, but keep the faith
that is the art of persevering

to hate my imperfect body, but then feel pretty sometimes
that is the art of accepting myself however God has created

then i start to think,
to get something bad before the good one,
might be one of His ways to give us the opportunity to enjoy everything at best.

~ the food will taste the best not when it is served hot, but when we are starving ~ quote by myself :p

thank You God.
hug God.
cayang2 God.

: D 　

ballad

"Ballads say in song what you can't express in words" - Mr. Shue

Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friendHolding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
Baby when we finally get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was ice

Please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
But baby when we finally get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
And don't treat me like I was ice

Oh please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
And don't treat me like I was ice

Oh please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine
And if you'd only say you love me darling
Things would really work out fine

*SAY YOU LOVE ME - M.Y.M.P
when you're playing this song, i just thought that it's for me..

Adorable!

i adore Your creations.

Babies
How they are so small, but have every detail of a man does,
How they grow in mother's womb, from no one to someone alive,
How they are so perfect as a newborn creature.

Children
How they are so cute and funny,
Teach us honesty and faith better than adults,
Hug us with their sincerity and trust.

Boys & Girls
Needs only a while to see them growing up,
And they became so tall and handsome,
Fresh, sweet and beautiful,
Blossom in their age.

Couples
How they seem to be meant for each other,
Match in every single way,
How You made a man so confident and smart,
How You made a woman so gentle and lovely.

Parents
What a very big heart you gave to them,
They cry when their children are sad,
And happy to see their children's happiness,
How they never stop loving and accepting,
Though the grown up child choose to love someone else more than them.

Grandma
How you made them merciful person,
The most comfortable place to run to,
As good as the taste of the cake they made for us.

How can i not adore You?
The Creator of all,
Who wonderfully made us in Your image,
Put everything in Your perfect order and plan.

It is good.
Beautiful.
Perfect.

Yes, You are.

RIDDLES

some stories from the new ship....

OBAMA'S VISIT
almost evening. peoples were leaving one by one.
since it was friday after office hours, no wonder my floor was so silent.
doing some works i prefer to prepare that day for Monday morning, i keep refreshing my mailbox.
then it happened that i received a mail from our Director's secretary with the subject:
"OBAMA's VISIT" with recepients name is everybody on the floor.
WOW!
yes i knew Obama would visit Indonesia around these days, but,
just WOW WOW WOW!
how come he will visit us?? in P******bank???
this is GREAT!
regardless i like Obama or not.
don't you think so?
to be continued...

APPLE TO WATERMELON
have i told you that i like fruits much better when it is juiced?
even i prefer vegetables than non juiced fruits..
some fruits are too hard to bite such as apple,
but some are very 'light' and fresh, such as watermelon.
*i love watermelon! and more love for watermelon juice! wkwkwk..
in my new office, ALL the women got this problems.
apple to watermelon.
if you can guess what it means..
to be continued...

I FAILED...
i thought if i study hard, i will be just fine.
i thought my IQ will be enough to do the works they do..
i thought my English is quite good, at least that's what i said in the interview, then they believed and accepted me...
my thought is totally wrong,
i failed in my first subject of E-learning...
to be continued...

HI!
it's been so nice to greet you from my new office! hahaha..
still trying to adjust the new environment, new role, new work, but so far so good.
the peoples around were nice, very clever and so funny! seriously, they are so FUNNY!
thank God :)
hope it's still good after the one i replace take her maternity leave (particularly bout my work)
AMEEEEEEEEEEEENNN!

*this is when i continue.. so keep reading :)

1. apparently, it was just an email of Obama's schedule in Jakarta, and information of some roads that would be blocked due to his visit in some places, so we're suggested to avoid the blocked area. stupid. why i thought Obama would visit my office -_-
2. this 'apple to watermelon' thing did disturbing us. yes, of course! since we eat A LOT, no wonder our apple belly shape became watermelon belly! finally, it is my turn to stop myself, DIET DIET DIET! waaaaaaaaaa!! 3. guess what, i failed in CODE OF ETHICS subject!!!! don't have a good ethic, do i? WAAAA!! embarassing. i asked a friend to help me answering the questions, finally i passed after taking my 2nd test. HAHAHAHA..

is it just a game?

What kind of game we're playing right now?
I'm clueless.
Wondering what happened to us.
Is it a care-less competition?
Or hurting one another's game?
So the one endures until the last is the winner..

Unblock me.
It's not my fault to be with anyone else but you.
We're selfish creatures,you know that clearly.
You'll do only what you wanna do,so do I.
We do it together only when it's mutualistic simbiosis rite?
Gosh,so shallow is our love now!

It won't be that hurt darl,we're tough woman and man.
Or if it hurts you that much,can you just tell me the truth rather than keep it?
Solve it rather than pretend to be ok?

We will survive without each other dear,but are we happy?
I hope so.
It will be nice if time could help us to forget our friendship and bring us to another new relationship.

But don't worry.
Sure you will win the game babe.
Since we all know it's your strength,yet also your weakness.
Your pride.

I just think it's a part of our school of life.
A lesson from God.
If we choose to do the wrong,we will learn something precious,though it costs a bestfriend.
If we choose to do the right,then it is good. No one will get hurt and we go one step up.

God,what will be will be.
You know better than me.

why can't i choose?

Bible taught me that women are born to be men's helper & supporter.
My mentor told me that we should be 'passive' rather than 'active' when starting a relationship.
People said that it supposed to be man who approaches woman, then the woman decides.
The others would say the same principle with different language and conditions.

butttttttttttttttttttttttt...
i never think it's fair enough for women   :(

difficult to accept, that woman can only choose from the options that come to her.
*hey, it means there's a probability that she likes NONE of all the options
**and when there's no more options, she HAS TO choose one of them she doesn't really like :'(
***i really don't want thissssssssssssssssssssssssss!! amit amit tok tok tok :((

yes, we do have the right to say yes or no when man comes to our life,
which for my mentor, this is it! that's exactly the time when women DO have the right to choose.
but, do you see the differenceeeeeeeee????AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

second thing.
most of women WILL EASILY FALL, to the man who intensely trying to get close to her.
classic story.
a man falls in love with a woman,  the woman doesn't.
the time goes by.
their closeness makes the woman in love with that man at last.
and they (might be) live happily ever after.
*that's why, in most of relationships i see, the woman seems better than the man (physically at least).
:'((

i realize that, lucky are they, who love the one who love them back, get married, and grow old together.
God, i wanna get married with the one i love. not the one i pity.

please read this wisely. it's just my thought that haven't got the enlightment.
one day i'll be proud being a woman of choice, not a woman without choice.