you!

You!

yes you!

where have you been all this time?
don't you know that i've been waiting for you?

i almost regret when i remember, in my 25th bday i asked God ONLY to meet me with you in 25,
that i didn't mind if we JUST meet each other without being a couple.

i'm sorry for a bit too late praying for you.
but that time i was really enjoying my time being single :p
thank God, He gave me the feeling, so i started to pray for you in 25.

cried out to the LOrd "meet me with him today!" in every morning prayer somehow gave me another excitement to go thru the day.
*but then i stopped for some time, afraid if you are Y that i meet every 'today' wakakaka..

how are you? :)
hope you're good.
and grow each day in Him.
just like what He's doing in me right now.

i always ask God to keep you safe,
handle you with care :p
and bless you in everything you do.

i've planned a lot for our future actually.
the holy matrimony,
the songs we'll play in our wedding party,
type of house we'll live in,
kind of job we'll do,
name of our baby boy.
*see how i think too far.. hahaha..

but God talked to me thru a cell friend, to surrender and put all my plans in God's hand.
There are many plans in a man's heart, nevertheless the Lord's counsel that will stand.
Proverbs 19.21

so for the time being, let's make a promise!
i promise i'll be good. live in holiness. will also prepare myself to be ready in the time we meet.
hope you'll also be good. live in holiness. and prepare yourself for whenever God's best time come.

take a good care of yourself.
and meet me soon! :)

perfect in imperfectness

in my 1 hour left being 25, let me list down what God had provided for me.

ME:

not outstanding, but fearfully and wonderfully made [Psalms 139.14]

have not the best parents among all, but they always keep me safe
*my bodyguard, my nurse, my creditor :p

have 2 rude sisters, but they're good sparring partners so i could be a tough girl
*practice makes perfect!

single, but complete in Him [Colossians 2.10]             =)

not yet had my own car, but many persons around drive me. including pap.
*yihaaa!! God is good. wkwkwkwk..

never had my study abroad, but given a chance to work with the expats
*where attention is read 'attentiong attentiong'

have a lazy boss (peace ^^), yet it brought me to many experiences and chances
*should i thank him for being lazy?

not that rich, but blessed abundantly
[Matthew 6.26] Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
*lemme answer:  yes, Lord. YES!! i'm more than them!

not as talented as echa the drummer, yet still used by God  :p
*he is a drummer, but he played keyboard this good! pdhl kaya asal2an gitu. aaaaaaaaaaaa!!

and the best is :
sinned, but forgiven and saved by God.
[John 3.17] For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.

my prayer for my 26:
God, i thank You for reasons above. it's just perfect in imperfectness    :)
Lead me in my 26. be in and around me.
as You promised You'll never leave me, nor forsake me.
may Your goodness and mercy follow me wherever i go.
*my prayer is Israel Houghton's song God. Everywhere That I Go lyric  :p
AND! teach me to have a mentality of abundance.
AMEN.

HAPPY 26 myself! may God bless me. hihihi..

THE HISTORY OF CHUCKIE

just in case i forget the story in the future (berasa punya bakat pikun), i choose to write it here  XD
*friends&followers, forgive me for posting something without a deep meaning like u guys do.. hehehe..
**and maybe i'll do it a lot of times  XD


i was in a far far away little town (lebai de lebai) sent by the office for some months,
and just having my hair cut.
my Indonesian friend (female) asked my Iraqi friend (male) how did i look with my new haircut..
the Iraqi answered 'very nice! you looked like a doll! a japanese doll'

proudly i told the story to my bestfriend (male) on phone in the evening..
me : 'yeaaaa, he said that i'm looked like a doll! hahaha!!'
he : 'yes yes! it's true! the Iraqi is right! u're looked like a doll, i'm not lying!!'
me : 'o yeaaa?? aaaaaaa!! thank youuuuuuuuuuu very much!!' ^,^
he : 'yes yes... looked like chuckie!'
me :  .... (i'll bomb u my dear friendd!!!)

now i'm known as 'chuckie' in my NEW office   -_-

new me in new year

[this was written half an hour to new year]

and i'm in my own room!
gosh!

wondering why i go nowhere?
cos somehow my friends who usually invite me to BBQ - were being invited by their friends to BBQ ;p
so i thought, setting up my blog's layout in new year's eve is not bad at all :)
*remembering i don't feel well for spending my whole night eating & talking, slept at 3.30am, woke up at 8am -_-
*barusan aja nge-rock (if you understand what i mean) it's related with 'masuk angin' XDD

i realized that my sleeping hours really affects to :
1. my mentality & mood
2. my skin's health

so this is it!
i was so in blue this morning, awoke with anxiety.
then i read out the verse in Phil 4.6-7.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

though i didnt really understand why they put 'with thanksgiving' there, i did it.
then i requested things to God, including the 'unholy' one : BB, a new car, a new job, meet my future husband before my birthday, etc hehehe..
but after all, i admitted what i need the most is His peace.
then i prayed wholeheartedly, that i would be a woman in Proverbs 31.30, and bloomed in my age ^^

understand it like this :
i wanna be a beautiful shiny diamond, hard to get, sold in very high price, and once it's been bought, the owner will keep it safe for it's worthy.

God, be with me always.

okeh! time for my first smile in new year!
SMILE   :D