why can't i choose?

Bible taught me that women are born to be men's helper & supporter.
My mentor told me that we should be 'passive' rather than 'active' when starting a relationship.
People said that it supposed to be man who approaches woman, then the woman decides.
The others would say the same principle with different language and conditions.

butttttttttttttttttttttttt...
i never think it's fair enough for women   :(

difficult to accept, that woman can only choose from the options that come to her.
*hey, it means there's a probability that she likes NONE of all the options
**and when there's no more options, she HAS TO choose one of them she doesn't really like :'(
***i really don't want thissssssssssssssssssssssssss!! amit amit tok tok tok :((

yes, we do have the right to say yes or no when man comes to our life,
which for my mentor, this is it! that's exactly the time when women DO have the right to choose.
but, do you see the differenceeeeeeeee????AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

second thing.
most of women WILL EASILY FALL, to the man who intensely trying to get close to her.
classic story.
a man falls in love with a woman,  the woman doesn't.
the time goes by.
their closeness makes the woman in love with that man at last.
and they (might be) live happily ever after.
*that's why, in most of relationships i see, the woman seems better than the man (physically at least).
:'((

i realize that, lucky are they, who love the one who love them back, get married, and grow old together.
God, i wanna get married with the one i love. not the one i pity.

please read this wisely. it's just my thought that haven't got the enlightment.
one day i'll be proud being a woman of choice, not a woman without choice.

lumoz

it is from the word lumos.
sounds familiar?
yep, the magic spell in Harry Potter to make a flame.

i never tell why i use this word all the time.
as my bluetooth name, my blog address, twitter name, etc etc..
too shy to tell what it means,
cos it is too high high high!
*when i repeat it three times, it means SOOOOOOOOO HIGHHHHHHHH! wkwkwk..

yea, the first idea - it is just my hope - that i could be a lumos in this world,
through my words, my acts, my achievements, my blog, my creation, my everything,
according to this verse:
Matthew 5.14-16
You are the light of the world.
A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden.
Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house.
Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.
since you all knew what it means, please remind me if i no longer shine this world :)

Luminous \Lu"mi*nous\, a. [L. luminosus, fr. lumen light: cf. F.lumineux. See Luminary, Illuminate.] [1913 Webster] Shining; emitting or reflecting light; brilliant; bright; as, the is a luminous body; a luminous color.