life worth living

My old friend once said,

"It's always interesting how life's treating us."

Do you think so?

I used to make tier of plan to ensure that i would get what i want and  none of my time would be useless. At least i made plan A and B for what i eager to get. 

*sometimes also the C and D

But there were times when even plan D didn't work! 

That, i understood as 'not God's will'.

Likewise, my life is also so.. unpredictable. 

What would happen, how it would be, whom i would be with are BIG SECRETS. 

I might not understand why this and that should happen in my life. 

*And surely incapable to compete His thought

Even if God answer my 'why why why' question now, most likely i won't understand at all.  

Yes. It's super hi-level consideration. 

What I saw and now understood, that each one of us were created so special and unique, with totally different storyline. 

So, my life wouldn't be the same like my mentor's experience (though we had similar background and personality), 

my future wouldn't be like what others told me (unless it's from God, it's merely a 'kepo' comment from their own life experience - that could not be generalized will happen to everyone else), 

my love life wouldn't be the same as any love story in the novels, nor Josh Harris' book, nor any couples story in church,

my success story wouldn't be the same as what others experienced,

And so on, and so on. 

The very good news is, when we walk through the paths God prepared before us, we will not be just surviving, but will see how He bring the best things for our life, more than we could ever ask or think!

God, I am SUPER EXCITED to see my future in You. 

Since You hold my world in Your hands, i will not be afraid, for my world is safe in Your hands. 

Amen!

Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unfathomable (inscrutable, unsearchable) are His judgments (His decisions)! And how untraceable (mysterious, undiscoverable) are His ways (His methods, His paths)! (Romans 11:33 AMP)

We plan the way we want to live, but only  God  makes us able to live it. (Proverbs 16:9 MSG)

Now to Him Who, by (in consequence of) the [action of His] power that is at work within us, is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly, far over  and  above all that we [dare] ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams]-- (Ephesians 3:20 AMP)

that's what friends are for

hi friendddddddd!
it's been a while (or a longgggggggg time) not seeing you!
*would give you a big hug + cipika cipiki if i were there

if you're asking why you get a notification that this old friend tagged you in a post, it is because of this..

i did my routine at work today then going home tiredly..
and in my super duper long bathing time, i think of my life n  i remember you all :)

things have changed pals,
years have passed,
we've all grown up (though i might be the slowest one) :p

have heard many good news from you, and i'm happy for that :)
for you who finally find the right person to grow old together n plan to tie the knot. congrats! bless for both of you :)
for you who with your strong-will and determination now really achieve what you've dreamt on. WOW. you're great! ;)
for you who now successfully become outstanding in your career and decide to move overseas. will visit you sometime! :D
for you who have been married with your best friend or someone you never dream of, but found out that he/she is your soulmate (hahaha). you're lucky you know?
for you who decide to live in your passion and enjoy it. that's a very good decision! looking for my turn. hehehe..
for you who struggled in a deep pain of losing, but then got your lovely and healthy baby now. have i told you that i was really really happy for you? ;D

we might not intensely contact each other,
i might not congrating you on your birthday,
might not attending your wedding party,
or visiting you and the newborn baby,
since we're way too 'far' now.
and someone new must be around wherever you are.

so,
before i forget,
i just wanna say thanks!
i really enjoy the moment with you and grateful to have someone like you beside me in the past.
*mann, as i could remember, it was SUPER FUN with all the stupid&norak things :D

and i sincerely pray that life will always be good, better, and give its best for you.

that's what friends are for!
*and also to be tagged in useless post like this but you know they will not get mad at you hahaha.. XD

love you always from afar :*

the hardcore do understand

i took one day off today before Lebaran holiday started next monday.

just thought that i need a Me day - alone, after sad sad* moments last week.
*it's repeated because it's double sad, made me lost my appetite
**quite a lot help me on diet though. yes! wkwkwk..

so a ME day began with the Pepper Lunch for brunch
*yes, the appetite lost last week, but i found him back in 2 days, don't ask how :d

the things after might not be as interesting as food:
watch Kungfu Panda 2,
drink my fave Quickly milk tea,
buy new release comic - Conan,
get me a new outfit,
gas station,
go home.

butttttttttttttttttttttttttt,
what i really wanna write here is:
YOU SHOULD WATCH KUNGFU PANDA 2!!!
and really listen to the quotes

i keep some for my ownself.
touching and heartwarming.
just read it carefully :)

[let go]
Po: You've got to let go of that stuff from the past because it just doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you choose to be now.

[be healed]
Po: Scars heal.
Lord Shen: No, they don't. Wounds heal.
Po: Oh, right. What do scars do? Fade?
Lord Shen: I don't care what scars do!

[thrifty]
Mr. Ping: My son saved China - you too, can save! Buy one dumpling, get one free!
--> wkwkwkwk..

[tigress juga manusia, punya rasa punya hati]
Tigress: The hardcore do understand, but I can't watch my friend be killed.
*for all my tough friends: don't be so hard on ourselves, expressing sadness or love is just normal, we're born with heart anyway ;)
God bless us

the Art of Life

just pop up in my mind :

to see the prosperous life, and meet the poor who sometimes are not less happier than the rich
that is His art to teach gratefulness

to be the smart among the average people, then feel stupid among the smart ones
that is the art of shaping my humility

to give up upon a condition, but then receive the best one
that is the art of surrender

to be jealous sometimes, and get blushed at many happy moments
that is the art of loving someone

(i like this one!)
to feel the salt, and taste the sweet one after
that is the art of enjoying food :)

to see nothing and feel down, but keep the faith
that is the art of persevering

to hate my imperfect body, but then feel pretty sometimes
that is the art of accepting myself however God has created

then i start to think,
to get something bad before the good one,
might be one of His ways to give us the opportunity to enjoy everything at best.

~ the food will taste the best not when it is served hot, but when we are starving ~ quote by myself :p

thank You God.
hug God.
cayang2 God.

: D 　

Adorable!

i adore Your creations.

Babies
How they are so small, but have every detail of a man does,
How they grow in mother's womb, from no one to someone alive,
How they are so perfect as a newborn creature.

Children
How they are so cute and funny,
Teach us honesty and faith better than adults,
Hug us with their sincerity and trust.

Boys & Girls
Needs only a while to see them growing up,
And they became so tall and handsome,
Fresh, sweet and beautiful,
Blossom in their age.

Couples
How they seem to be meant for each other,
Match in every single way,
How You made a man so confident and smart,
How You made a woman so gentle and lovely.

Parents
What a very big heart you gave to them,
They cry when their children are sad,
And happy to see their children's happiness,
How they never stop loving and accepting,
Though the grown up child choose to love someone else more than them.

Grandma
How you made them merciful person,
The most comfortable place to run to,
As good as the taste of the cake they made for us.

How can i not adore You?
The Creator of all,
Who wonderfully made us in Your image,
Put everything in Your perfect order and plan.

It is good.
Beautiful.
Perfect.

Yes, You are.

RIDDLES

some stories from the new ship....

OBAMA'S VISIT
almost evening. peoples were leaving one by one.
since it was friday after office hours, no wonder my floor was so silent.
doing some works i prefer to prepare that day for Monday morning, i keep refreshing my mailbox.
then it happened that i received a mail from our Director's secretary with the subject:
"OBAMA's VISIT" with recepients name is everybody on the floor.
WOW!
yes i knew Obama would visit Indonesia around these days, but,
just WOW WOW WOW!
how come he will visit us?? in P******bank???
this is GREAT!
regardless i like Obama or not.
don't you think so?
to be continued...

APPLE TO WATERMELON
have i told you that i like fruits much better when it is juiced?
even i prefer vegetables than non juiced fruits..
some fruits are too hard to bite such as apple,
but some are very 'light' and fresh, such as watermelon.
*i love watermelon! and more love for watermelon juice! wkwkwk..
in my new office, ALL the women got this problems.
apple to watermelon.
if you can guess what it means..
to be continued...

I FAILED...
i thought if i study hard, i will be just fine.
i thought my IQ will be enough to do the works they do..
i thought my English is quite good, at least that's what i said in the interview, then they believed and accepted me...
my thought is totally wrong,
i failed in my first subject of E-learning...
to be continued...

HI!
it's been so nice to greet you from my new office! hahaha..
still trying to adjust the new environment, new role, new work, but so far so good.
the peoples around were nice, very clever and so funny! seriously, they are so FUNNY!
thank God :)
hope it's still good after the one i replace take her maternity leave (particularly bout my work)
AMEEEEEEEEEEEENNN!

*this is when i continue.. so keep reading :)

1. apparently, it was just an email of Obama's schedule in Jakarta, and information of some roads that would be blocked due to his visit in some places, so we're suggested to avoid the blocked area. stupid. why i thought Obama would visit my office -_-
2. this 'apple to watermelon' thing did disturbing us. yes, of course! since we eat A LOT, no wonder our apple belly shape became watermelon belly! finally, it is my turn to stop myself, DIET DIET DIET! waaaaaaaaaa!! 3. guess what, i failed in CODE OF ETHICS subject!!!! don't have a good ethic, do i? WAAAA!! embarassing. i asked a friend to help me answering the questions, finally i passed after taking my 2nd test. HAHAHAHA..

why can't i choose?

Bible taught me that women are born to be men's helper & supporter.
My mentor told me that we should be 'passive' rather than 'active' when starting a relationship.
People said that it supposed to be man who approaches woman, then the woman decides.
The others would say the same principle with different language and conditions.

butttttttttttttttttttttttt...
i never think it's fair enough for women   :(

difficult to accept, that woman can only choose from the options that come to her.
*hey, it means there's a probability that she likes NONE of all the options
**and when there's no more options, she HAS TO choose one of them she doesn't really like :'(
***i really don't want thissssssssssssssssssssssssss!! amit amit tok tok tok :((

yes, we do have the right to say yes or no when man comes to our life,
which for my mentor, this is it! that's exactly the time when women DO have the right to choose.
but, do you see the differenceeeeeeeee????AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

second thing.
most of women WILL EASILY FALL, to the man who intensely trying to get close to her.
classic story.
a man falls in love with a woman,  the woman doesn't.
the time goes by.
their closeness makes the woman in love with that man at last.
and they (might be) live happily ever after.
*that's why, in most of relationships i see, the woman seems better than the man (physically at least).
:'((

i realize that, lucky are they, who love the one who love them back, get married, and grow old together.
God, i wanna get married with the one i love. not the one i pity.

please read this wisely. it's just my thought that haven't got the enlightment.
one day i'll be proud being a woman of choice, not a woman without choice.