visible VS invisible

Life is just too real with many imperfect facts,
so i don't fly too high with my happy feelings in romantic moment.
*imagine a handsome prince fall in love with a beautiful princess.
they get married and live happily ever after.
sounds so perfect.
but do you ever think that the prince and the princess are human also, that can sweat, snore and even fart? xp
now the story of the prince and the princess is not too cool anymore..
see, that behind everything good, there is something imperfect that can make it GUBRAK!


But life is also not that bad when i see many people's life are worse than mine,
so i don't sink too deep with my sad feeling in mellow time.
*in an awful day, all the world seems to hate me, i don't have future, i don't wanna live etc etc, i took a pity of myself.
then i saw my subordinate. looked happy. if she could live, why couldn't i?
i pat my cheek, pinched my hand, and back to the state of CONSCIOUS.


There' re times when my day is full of love, i admit it.
but the day after is just so so. usual. like the ordinary day. love is no more in the air.
so, yea, just forget the dramatic moment with family and friends
: |  (straight face on)


There is nothing,
yes,
nothing can hold me stay long so deeply in feeling..
except.. the one i felt these days, i.e. JEALOUSY!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!   X'O


i pretend that i never be jealous of her.
i play my role as a confident tough woman.
but it's getting hard to play the role.
everytime i see her, something inside my stomach is moving fastly.
i don't hate her, but i don't like herrrrrrr!!
except she moves to a far far away place and never comes back.
bwe! >=p


do you know what did i find after?


Proverbs 27.4
Wrath is cruel and anger a torrent,
But who is able to stand before jealousy?


wkwkwkwk..
even Salomon said that, so there's nothing wrong if i can't stand it  :p


conclusion : i better keep the distance.
(or you just stay away from me my dear lovely girl!!)