what is THAT?

what is birth,
that most of living people never hope to have one, but then they struggle to keep it when they're about to lose it

what is life,
that we never see the power behind which keeps our hearts beating, but yes, we're alive!

what is home,
that we miss so much whenever we’re away,
though it’s not all that good, that big, or that strong, we feel safe in it

what is a sisterhood,
that quarreling was such as a hobby when we were close,
but everything turns so peaceful and sweet when we're separated

what is so good about the 1st nephew,
that we compare him with an angel,
and in our eyes they are the most handsome boy in the universe

what is 'liking',
that we never admit if it's or perhaps love, but we feel the pain when we lose it

what is time,
that we could never touch, chase, or keep,
it’s beyond our control,
we're trapped in it and can never get out

what is jealousy,
that makes us hate another for the wrong he has not done

what is satisfaction,
that sometimes can't we get by achieving our goals, obtaining the wealth and power of the world,
not even when we stand on the top of everything,
but sometimes it just comes after little things we did for others

what is a word,
with which a good speaker inspiring people,
with which an author amazing readers
and with the same thing, a scoffer creates bitterness and hatred

what is music,
that beat our heart faster when we're in love,
and tear our hearts into pieces in time of sadness

what is love,
that though we can't see or grab it, our heart can indeed feel the happiness,
our body gets stronger,
our mood becomes so good,
our smile never leaves our face

finally, what is GOD,
that He created everything i asked above,
and one after another He put in our life,
good after bad,
bad after good,
but finally when we look back, we understand that His plan is just beautiful.

RUSH HOUR

I have only 35 minutes to wake up, use my softlenses, brush my braced teeth, shower, put on 4 types of cream + face powder, take my socks, shoes, breakfast & drink so i can do all in the car.
Using my shoes, ID Card, watch, eating and reading Bible at the same time.

Work from 8 am to 5 pm, doing all the jobs, i try to save some time this way :
I don’t go to the toilet without my yellow Tupperware so i could refill my drink on the way to toilet.
*the pantry is soo far from my cube
I don’t go to Lexmark Multi Function Device without my pen, so after I print some papers, i’ll check a minute, sign and fax it.
*the MFD is not so far, but quite wasting time to go back and forth
I speed up my walk. Believe me. When i walk 3 steps, a normal woman only have 2 or 1.
It’s also for balancing my slow eating disorder.
(wkwkwkwk, i never call it’s a bad habit cos i can’t and will never enjoy eating fast!)
5 pm I will run out of office to catch the Bus Trans to catch my pap.
or I will pay more (using taxi) to save one hour that i won’t get if i have to go home by myself.

The rushing continues if I have something to attend in the evening such as music practice/ cell group/ meeting etc. Showering, drying my hair, eating in 35 minutes then driving like a runaway robber.

Then I close the day with a fast prayer in heart, lying on my bed just to save some more time to give my body enough time to rest.
.......
I just thought i have saved one year when i decided to join in acceleration class in highschool so i would have one free year that others wouldn’t have..
.......
but ‘saving time’ never ends, it still continues until today.

What is the point of chasing the time all the time?
Time will keep running anyway.
And since we all knew that it wouldn't come back again, why don’t just allow me to enjoy mine?

NUMBERS

When it should be 1, i had 2 years
*i might be the only child who’s repeating my TK B, in the 2nd year i got the 1st rank wakakaka...
When it should be 3 years, i had only 2
*yea, accelerated class in senior high, best and worst time all at once


[So we’re 12 persons in one class
1 ½ were male
10 ½ were female
*or just round it, 2 male and 10 female, if you count me ½ male]


When i was 18, i thought like 26
my bestfriend was 23
boyfriend was 19
my 1st student was 15


When i was 22, i thought like 30
close friend was 35 (aaaaaa!!!)
i idolized a 17
was attractive to the 20 (sudah dari dulu memangku terlihat 2 tahun lebih muda XD )
and also the 35 (untung aku tak tertipu! wkwkwkwk)


Now i am 26, i thought like 18
my best friend is 22
i scream all the time (aaaaaaaaa!) like 14
and i wish i could be 15 again!!

then somehow i remember what master shifu said
“Yesterday is history.. tomorrow is mystery.. that’s why we called today a PRESENT.”


no regret. i'll live my life to the fullest!